Wythe Avenue


Ian was playing the last few songs of the night, sitting in on guitar with his friend Will’s cover band. It was really Jim’s band, the frontman and guitarist. Most people there were drinking and watching football. There was very dim lighting and lots of picnic-type tables, sticky from old beer. The band played on a small raised stage that had a worn, colorless carpet stapled to it. They played “That Smell,” by Lynard Skynard to close their set, and a server turned the lights on and people started to leave. Some people stayed to talk to the band. Ian wanted a cigarette. He went outside to help Will with his drums.
Ian smoked and talked with Will, who had hand-rolled cigarettes, as they packed his car. Will was talking about Jim.
“Music is like fucking, you know? Jim’s got bad rhythm. He can’t fucking keep time.”
Ian didn’t think that music was like fucking. He said he thought that it was cerebral. Will got Ian talking about sex, which he didn’t usually talk about. He had only had sex a small number of times with a small number of women. He was telling Will that. Ian thought Will was looking at him differently for some reason.  Like he had broken some basic requirement of being a man.  Ian laughed and looked at his phone.  Will put more drums in his car, then drove Ian to the subway while they listened to classic rock on the radio.

                Ian took the subway to his apartment in Brooklyn and unlocked the front door. The old guy who lived on the floor, whose name Ian forgot, had his door open. His apartment was lit up only by a red neon sign the man had gotten from a bar. He was drinking cheap vodka out of a shot glass; shoulders raised and bunched up as he leaned on his table, with his two cats, Asshole and Numbnuts, lying around his legs. Ian saw this almost every night and the whole picture always looked insane to him. He put up his hand in a lazy wave at the man, who nodded back with a solemn look.
In his apartment, Ian put his guitar under his futon bed, then went back downstairs and to the bodega on the corner. The bodego was lit with about two-thirds of its fluorescent light fixtures and smelled like mildew. The brown tile floor was never washed, but the deli section was clean. Ian walked up and ordered a roast beef sandwich. He ordered the same sandwich almost every night, sometimes twice in one day. A little jingle had developed in his head about it over time:
roast
beef
swiss
cheese
lettuce
to-ma-to
may-o-naise
It felt absurd. The guy who worked the deli grinned at Ian and Ian grinned back while thinking of the jingle.
Ian went back upstairs and sat down at the card table in the middle of his room to eat. His room was a studio apartment that had his bed, a small desk by it that faced the wall, a small tv in one corner by the bed, shelves with poetry books, a dresser in the middle of the room instead of a closet, and the card table. The kitchen was a sink and a microwave. The bathroom was a sliver of a space that you couldn’t really turn around in but had a toilet and a small shower. The apartment’s one window looked out on the small garden, and the sunlight or moonlight came in through trees.
At this point, Ian noticed that the jacket he had been wearing smelled strongly of sweat. He got up and took it off, humming “That Smell,” and continued eating the sandwich.
He stared at a box of Emergen-C brand vitamin C powder he had bought. There were at least fifty packets of powders in the box. Ian rarely got a cold and couldn’t remember why he had bought them, but was putting them in his tap water anyway because they sort of tasted good.
Ian looked at the box and thought of the powders and how he used them were a good analogy for something, like how circumstances and what a person has available at a given time determine a lot. Ian had a great immune system.
He finished his meal and tried to think of something to do. He took his notebook, went downstairs and sat on the building’s steps, lighting a cigarette. He tried to think of something to write, and wrote down a poem he had already written to see if he remembered it. He figured if he remembered all the lines then they were all good enough, and if he didn’t remember one it should be replaced.
A woman walked up to him and stopped, standing about a foot from him. The light from the streetlamp across the street was yellow and the street was recently redone, and was a deep black. The woman just looked at Ian. She was in her forties, he guessed, and her dark, dry hair was lit up from behind by the lamp.
“Hi,” she said.
“Hi… how ya doin?”
“Oh, you’re nice,” she said, mainly talking to herself. She was in some sort of elevated mood.
“Do you think I could bum a cigarette from you?” she asked.
“Sure.” Ian handed her one.
“What are you writing?”
Ian didn’t like to talk about his writing. He shrugged his shoulders and said it was nothing.
                “It’s nothing?”
Ian asked her how her night was.
                “I had a crazy night. I was just dancing with this woman.” She looked up and away for a second.
                “This- scorpion bit me- and I think I’m in love.”
Ian watched her as she looked off into some direction.
                “Cool.”
She looked at Ian with a slightly glazed or maybe spacey expression for a few seconds. It seemed like she wasn’t looking at him.
“Let me write something for you.”
Ian handed her the notebook and a pen. She dropped the cigarette and held the notebook in one hand to the side, and leaned over to write on it, bending one knee to put her hips at an angle. She tilted her head and didn’t seem to be looking at the notebook as she wrote in it. Ian thought it looked romantic.
She handed him back the notebook and pen. It said ‘I love life / life is love.’ She gave him a little half smile, still sort of unsure of herself, and thanked him for the cigarette. Before she went he wished her a nice night.
It was about 3 AM at this point and Ian kept smoking on his stoop, not wanting to go to sleep since he had that day off.
Two people, a guy and a girl in their twenties, came up to him and asked for cigarettes. They decided Ian was nice and started talking.
They were friends on vacation in New York from Tampa, Florida. Ian told them that he was from Miami. They told him he should come with them to a bar called the Levee in Williamsburg. Ian went upstairs for a clean jacket. The only jacket he had was a suit jacket, a thin-striped grey thing. They made fun of him when he came downstairs, and walked to the subway, riding it to the Bedford stop.
They went to the bar with Ian wearing his suit jacket, and he didn’t fit in, so he stuck out. There was a big buck arcade game behind them.
They all drank Stellas and talked. John was a manager at whole foods and Jamie was a psychologist and legal assistant. They talked about Florida and how they liked New York. Jamie told Ian she had some friends in New York and that they were coming to join them.
After a few beers went by, a girl and her friends came in. She had a black t-shirt with big holes around her shoulders so that you could easily see her bra. They joined the group, ordered beers, and they all ate cheese balls.
The group, about six of them at this point, got pretty drunk and walked outside on the sidewalks. Three of them took cabs home, leaving Ian, John, Jamie, and the girl with the black shirt, who had introduced herself to Ian once, but he hadn’t heard her and didn’t ask her again.
The girl found a fake pink feather on the sidewalk. She bent down, with one foot on the ground, as the other went up at a 90-degree angle as if she was a ballet dancer. She put one hand on her hip as she bent and her pinky and ring finger slid into the pocket of her jeans. A car went by and lit her from the front for a second as she looked at the feather and tossed her hair back to tuck it behind her ear. She looked at everyone.
                “That’s a nice… pinion,” Ian said, and grinned.
After a while Ian tossed his keys as high into the air as he could. When he almost caught them they cut his palm and for some reason he was thinking of the word, Jessica- not the name, the word, although he knew a few Jessicas. He thought, “Hey, I’m bleeding, Jessica,” and laughed to himself because it was so strange.

It was about 4 AM at this point in rural New York where there was warm blackness, black wheat blooming in bending with wind fields, small sounds of rocks kicked by wandering kids, all of the sounds outside the city. A man was in his wood-sided home counting the hairs on his bed, letting them go with a sick feeling to the floor. Birds, dark ones, outside, flew down and wet their wings in the leaking spigot on the side of his house, their feet not quite pressing into the grey mud. The man’s three fluorescent light fixtures were going off and on- they had been going off and on for a few days or months. He looked up at them from his bed. He was out of cash and restless, and decided to drive into the city.

In Brooklyn they continued walking down the sidewalks, finding most of the bars closing now. They were having a good time and felt as familiar with each other as they could for having hung out for a few hours. John stopped and walked into an alley to piss.
The other three watched and yelled encouraging words.
“Hey like… write your name into the wall,” Ian said.
“Ok yeah… I’ll try.” John sincerely tried to write his name on the wall with his urine.
               
The man driving in from rural New York had decided to drive through Manhattan where the majority of cops were and cross the Williamsburg Bridge into Brooklyn. He drove very slowly down Wythe Avenue and saw a couple young people standing a few feet into an alley. He parked his car and opened his glove box to pull out a long flip knife. He strode into the narrow alley and stood there for a few moments.
                “Hey kids.”
John finished pissing and zipped up, “Sup, shithead.”
The man laughed quietly and took the knife out of his pocket and flipped it open.
 Ian looked at the others. The girl with the black shirt put her hands in her pockets and tilted her head to one side, her hips becoming angled. Jamie froze on her feet.
                The man laughed.
                “Alright, this is pretty easy. Wallets and purses.”
The four got together.
The girl with the feather behind her ear had a glint in her eye. Jamie put her hand on her shoulder and looked at her. The girl batted her hand away and looked back at the man.
Jamie’s heart beat so fast that it hurt her. The man laughed and lowered the knife to his hips, thrusting them forward. John took a step toward him:
                “If you try anything else we’ll wake up everyone in these buildings.”
                “You could try that if you want this to get ugly. I’m not interested in anything else. I think rich boy here can cough up enough to get me a pro.” He winked at them.
                “Fine,” John said, and tossed his wallet to the man’s feet. Everyone did the same with their wallets or purses. The girl had slipped her phone into her pocket. Jamie’s phone was still in her purse. He put the wallets in his pockets and the purses on his shoulders, smiled a shit-eating grin at them and turned around 180 degrees to walk away.
The girl had seen some cinderblocks to her side and was holding one. She crept behind the man with light steps. The others didn’t dare say anything. A breeze came in from somewhere and reflected a few times off the walls of the alley, making the leaves form a circle. Ian noticed it and thought it felt nice. The girl swung the narrow part of the cinderblock into the back of the man’s head. She didn’t hit him with force. But the cinderblock connected with his cerebellum and the man’s legs went to nothing. He collapsed and his face fell onto a fire hydrant. His nose bones snapped off from their base and moved into his brain. He died instantly.
                Jamie, in a delayed reaction said, “What are you doing, Cadence?” very quietly. Her back and shoulders were slouched forward and her short hair was floating in the breeze.
John had rushed over to the man and picked up his knife, not sure of what he would do, when he noticed that the man was motionless. John cautiously took the man’s pulse, his hands shaking against the corpse’s neck. Cadence looked at Jamie as she continued to stare into some other place and Ian watched Cadence watching her.

There was a lot of quick discussion afterward. They thought they might drag the body into the alley to make sure no cars would see it, but didn’t want to leave a trail of blood. They stood in a line to block the body from views from the street. There weren’t any people on the sidewalk, but the sun would be rising in an hour or so. There was a faint green light spreading where you could see between the buildings, in arching figures like broken sections of wings someone was trying to put together. At this point they had learned from checking the man’s wallet that his name was Joseph McGinnon, and that he lived in the Hudson Valley. They were afraid that even though killing him had been an accident, that they could still be convicted of some form of murder. There had been lights on in the apartments overhead, and it wasn’t unreasonable to them that someone had seen them assault an unarmed man and had already called the police. John said plainly that they had to get rid of the body.

Four young people on Wythe Avenue in Brooklyn had blood running on their hands and wrists as they carried Joe to his car. The trunk was full of heavy metal tools and parts, so they opened the backseat and arranged him into a fetal position, his head drooping onto the leather seats at an acute angle from his long neck. All four of them slipped into the front, which was one long continuous seat, in an unspoken agreement that they should all be together for now.

John sat in the driver’s seat, Jamie next to him, Cadence next to her, and Ian was against the window.
“Well,” Cadence said, “where are we going.”
“You seem to have all the plans,” John said and shrugged.
“That wasn’t planned.”
Ian caught her gaze. “It’s a good thing that wind kicked up in our direction or he might have heard you coming after him.”
“I’m made for all directions of the wind,” she said, settling back into her seat and looking out the windshield, moving her eyebrows up and down, like she had just told a joke, for anyone who might be watching her face.
“Why don’t we take him home?” Ian said.
Cadence lolled her head over to Ian.
“What?” John hadn’t started the car yet.
“There’s no way this guy lived with anyone. Let’s take him to the address on his license. It’ll look like a suicide.”
Jamie had become more uncomfortable and was shivering into her seat until now. At this point, she sat up.
                “I want us to get out of the city. I say we do that.”
Cadence took Joe’s wallet from John and found the driver’s license, noticing that it was expired by two years. She put the address into the GPS application on her phone.
                “There’s a chance this guy has been homeless for a few years,” Cadence said with her eyes on her phone.
                “Then we’ll just check the place out and find someplace else if need be. Let’s go,” Jamie said.
                “How are we going to get back?” John asked.
                “There’s a train station close to his place, look. We’ll just have to walk like two miles.” Cadence passed the phone to John.
                “Jesus, I’m exhausted” John said.
                “We’ll deal with it.” Jamie was breathing easier.

                They started out and were following the directions from Cadence’s phone. A light rain had begun falling and spotted the car’s windows, and made the streetlights into elongated rays against the dirty windshield. John noticed that the breaks were old, or maybe that there was no breaking fluid, and sat stiffly on the seat, his body using up most of his adrenaline at this point. They sat in silence. They had an hour to go.
                “Look at the sunrise,” Cadence turned around and took a picture out of the back windshield.
                Cadence passed the phone to Ian.
The photo showed a yellowing horizon set behind the highway with telephone poles and birds landing or flying away from the wires. A bit of Joe’s blood was on the top of the backseat toward the bottom of the photo. Ian passed back the phone.
                “Shit, I accidentally closed the navigation,” Cadence said.
                “Great. Wasn’t there a turn coming up in a mile?” John said.
                “Just pull over for a minute.”
John edged the car on to the sloping grass on the side of the road. Jamie suggested they all get out for some fresh air, since Joe and his blood, and the shit he had expelled when he died, were starting to stink despite the open windows. They all got out and shared cigarettes as Cadence entered Joe’s address into her phone again. John was asking Jamie if she was ok. She was still a little shaken. John handed her some pills of something and she swallowed them dry. Ian stood with his arms crossed and watched them, then looked at Cadence working with her phone. Jamie gazed in a distracted way at the car, then at everyone. She felt lonely.
                “Who are we?” she said to no one in particular. Ian wasn’t sure if she was asking a question. He looked back at the city behind them, then down the road and back at Jamie.
                “I’d say we’re just about anyone here,” John said.
Cadence had the navigation working again and they got into the car in the same order as before.

                They arrived at Joe’s house and pulled up slowly. They were relieved when they saw that he had only one neighbor about 100 yards up the road. Ian got out to knock on the door, feeling obligated by his having the idea first that they should come here. He slid out of his seat and walked across the dirt road. He looked behind him at the others and the wheat fields behind the car.
He felt assured by the fact that there were no other cars in the driveway. When he knocked, the door creaked open, and he could see everything in the house but the bedroom. He slowly walked in and glanced into the bedroom, everything being well lit by a few flickering fluorescent lights. The floor was carpeted by a thin material that used to be blue, but was worn to brown in most places. In every corner there were balls, sometimes mounds, of dust and hair. The kitchen stove held a pot half filled with baked beans that flies were enjoying.
Ian went back outside and nodded at the others as he crossed the dirt road. All that was left to do was deposit Joe, move the car, and walk the two miles to the train station. They carried the body in and placed it face-down on the floor next to his bed, then parked the car in the wet gravel next to the house, with its spigot where the birds had been trying to bathe their wings.